i have moved! to

www.amooos.wordpress.com

oh wells! RARR RARR

sunny sunny day! wanna sleep in, wanna go swimming, wanna go eat korean BBQ, wanna go strolling down the beach, wanna go watch a movie, wanna slack.

Dont wanna be in school:'(

amos shall blog more. Thanks to people like Luke and Kat, who were so active in their blogs and now they're dead, i shall not be part of that legacy!! Was telling Bree and Xuan that my blog was suppose to be non- emo but that seemed to have changed. Ohwell :P

School has been reall terrible. I drag myself out of bed everyday, try to get to school before 9, sit in the still dark lab and stone, wait for my groupmates to come in, before having our daily KOPI GAO. Then we proceed to slacking the whole day, the girls doing online shopping and me, well i do nothing but sit around and do brainless things in case the teacher calls. So here i am in the library, coz MSN in the lab is totally failing on me and my groupmates decided to go shopping at parkway:(

well finally all the birthday celebrations are done with, i'm not that self centred, celebrations for 2 people ok! not just mine.. Was just bitching to anyone who bothers to hear, ever since i entered poly, my birthdays have gotten from a state of enjoyment to almost nothing, but then again dont expect much from my classmates la, last year we were suppose to go to SUGAR LOAF, the cafe in school but it was full, so we ended up in KFC where they were screaming happy birthday. This year, it was a Prata shop! but it was my favourite Prata shop la so well..i'm happy:) but ahem i still want my Oakley bag guys! i'll even chip in haha!

and i figured it's time i let anyone who reads know, i figured if you bother to read my blog, then i think you deserve to know la.but if you wanna know who she is then you gotta come ask me personally. Personal touch man!

So yup, she's my first girlfriend, we were a little hesitant to take that step in, barring NS and further studies too, but i think we both agreed that we wanted to build up a trust that will be strong enough to last through these things rather then tell ourselves, i think it's gonna be tough, let's not try yet.
And the next question everyone always has is, what do i like about her, well beyond physical attraction and all, i think that we have a very open friendship where we can share about anything, yes it does sound dubious and does not seem to be a very good reason, all i can really say is well we're praying about this all the way through, and we have a lot of people who are watching over us:)
i guess that's about all i can say in short, come talk to me and i'll be happy to share more with you:)

Rarr i wished i was using wordpress then i can choose to lock posts which are personal. Should think about making that change eh:P

right now, i just dont feel like i want the company of a psp, or the Arena software. what i really want is proper fellowship with friends over a cup of starbucks. With the skies threatening to cry all over us, there truely is no other place to be, other then an outdoor starbucks, sitting safely under a huge beach umbrella and chilling:). and that probably is the reason why so many people turn to facebook or friendster. More then just a means of communication, its a means of feeling accepted, being able to hide behind that computer screeen and view the profiles of people they dispise but secret envy them for having good complexion, body or money.

i really pray for you guys, that you would find more meaning in life then just trying to make the most amount of money, being the prettiest face around, window shopping online endlessly or trying to have as many friends as possible. Get out and experience the world. Nothing beats true fellowship. The computer just attempts to recreate the feeling.

Matthew 7:13-14
13"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

You are my World
You are my God
AND I LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR YOU

Jesus i believe in You
And i would go
TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH

Let these words fall heavily on us. These are powerful words. Can you claim all of these? I CANT.
IN response i can only say these words.

I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else can i go
There's no other name by
Which i am saved
Captured me with grace/

I need Your love each and everyday
Would You be right here
Coz i need Your love each and everyday
Could you come closer
Lead my way
Every step that i take each page
I need Your love

To love you - TAKE MY WORLD APART
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - TAKE MY WORLD APART
To need you - broken on my knees

it's never fair.

Generally it was a good evening. I must say PDOP was really good:) felt so moved to pray for the different schools but i also have to say there were alot of thoughts running through my mind as i was praying. Just alot of thoughts about my relationship with God, and if my cup is too full that nothing can go in anymore. Alot of the thoughts i cannot process,i just know it's bugging me. so i dont really know how to share..


I think the change in mood was when i called home and asked if my dad could pick me, but my mum said he wanted to watch TV and asked me to come back on my own. I was thinking to myself, if you can pick my brother mon wed fri from school every week, why cant you pick me just this once? so many times you ask me if i wanted you to come pick me but i said no need it's so far away, yet this once i ask i get rejected. i mean i take it as a sign you trust me more then my brother in making my own way back, so if that is so you cant trust me with the car?in the end i took cab home anyway. Makes no difference. Just whether i spent the money on cab or your money on fuel. Not that you're going to read this anyway. Just needed to vent my hurt and anger a little. i need to sleep i guess. Staying up till so late plus overload of school work is not exactly the best combination.

i wonder if one day i would look back and cringe at this post.

Bleh. Know i haven't been blogging lately. Just so lazy to do it): and that stupid imeem is still not working for me!!

Just gonna write about an interesting sermon today:p

Pastor preached from Jeremiah 18:1 - and it he was just saying we need to be in the right spiritual/physical position to hear God's voice. He also said, as we mature in our faith, we start to take back the things we surrendered to God at the altar. I see the truth in that, how as we mature in faith, we have less and less dependence on Him, thus bringing me to the topic of today's sermon, Surrendering. He gave 3 points as to why we do not surrender, PRIDE- self explanatory, FEAR- of being vulnerable, weak and plain REBELLIOUSNESS.

Final and most piercing question. When we surrender, do we do it willingly, or do we do it because we expect the blessing at the end of it?

Just one really small encouragement for me today, i was sitting in service today, first time in like 2 yrs i went for service twice in a mth! and all of a sudden a sense of loneliness swept over me. i thought of elroi, lucy and james, and how these brothers are so dear to me, and i could go to church every week and relax and hang out with them..and i left all of that behind when i went to Charis. all of my close friends have left. i sit alone at the back of the hall during service, most people just know me as a children's church teacher and conversations are superficial at best. and i was just closing my eyes and i asked God, remind me again why i'm here. why i have to be forced to act like an adult and to have an expectations placed on me with no where to hide and no one to share my burden.

But when i opened my eyes i was sooo shocked to see aunty Chloe, my children's church head standing beside me in worship! if i rarely had a chance to come for service, she almost never came at all! and right there and then i remembered that i was there to learn, and the road is truly long. but hang tough amos. so many people have asked me why i haven't left yet, well there're really so many churches i would really have enjoyed, but somehow or rather i dont feel the call to move yet..so oh wells :p

i surrendered you(:

James 1:26 (New International Version)

26If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless.

As we were doing bible study on thurs, we came across this verse. And i think it struck me quite hard because, it's really a great reminder of what pastor Sam spoke to me when i visited his church the other time. He told me, that God cannot condone bad language, because we cannot use the same lips, to praise God, yet curse man. So he told me to remember to control my tongue. i think in more ways then one, not just swearing, but also through the words i speak. Because words have such great power, to build or destroy. To command in or out.

Victorious Christian living. i'm not here to preach a prosperity gospel, but it is true that many of us do not claim the power of Christ in our lives. we succumb to the devil, when he tells us we're not good enough, we're not a good christian, stealing is ok as long as you don't get caught.
We need more and more to cling onto Jesus when we feel like falling or we're weak. My friend Addison shared with me, even when he feels tired he prays in tongues, to keep his spirit from faltering, and that was such a great reminder and encouragement to me which i still have problems implementing in my life..
So as i was bathing God reminded me, you want My power in your life but you do not claim it. Take OWNERSHIP of this power and use it!:)

just some thoughts i had, doesnt mean i'm not struggling, it probably means i'm struggling more..